It’s Friday nite. I’m just cleaning the house again. My relationship was toxic so I left.
17 months on I feel like my life was better then than now. I wake up alone full of anxiety and regrets. I feel like my life is ruined. Like I can’t get back on track. Why can’t I move on. Did I do the wrong thing… I don’t know how to be happy. I don’t drink much so socialising is hard. I can’t find anywhere to belong anymore. Can anyone help me.. tell me how to get back on track…
If your relationship was toxic then you did the right thing by leaving. Never doubt that. You just need to work on yourself more. Think about the things you like doing and try and incorporate more of that into your world. If you feel lonely find a group to join. It can take a long time to heal from a toxic relationships but this is your opportunity to move on and be happy, but only you can start the ball rolling.
Getting back on track is all about when you are ready to do it. So many single mum (single parents) lose their funk after a breakup. Allow yourself to feel this way for a certain amount of time then say enough is enough. You are the only one who knows what you can do to make yourself feel better. Weightloss, exercise, socialising .. everything is possible but you have to have a plan and make it happen. Do it for your children’s sake. They need to see mum loving life.
Moving on takes time and not everyone is the same I suggest for you to start thinking for something positive every day even in the simplest things. From then try to do the things you loved to do before. It doesn’t have to involve being with other people if don’t feel like it. I hope these first steps can help you.